B23: I miss hanging out with ya
Mad Girl: Well you are the one who dropped off the face of the earth
B23: I guess I did but you made it seem like you wanted to date more than just me
So this is the recent e-mail exchange I've had with long lost B23. It's been about two months since I gave up on him and I was shocked as hell to find a message in my OKC inbox the other day. It's got me wondering what I did to make him believe that I wanted to date other people because he was the only one I was dating at the time and I really liked him.
I think I'm going to give him a second chance and try to figure out exactly what gave him that impression. I know I try to play it cool and sometimes that comes across as uninterested. I think I do it to protect myself from heartbreak (thanks B19). So maybe I need to be upfront with B23 about how that made me feel and how I actually did want to date just him. I mean, the guy made me carbonara for Pete's sake. You don't just go throwing away a chance to be with carbonara making man who is good at sex and fun to be around.
To complicate this situation a bit more, I've been seeing B29 again. Remember how I ditched him because he had kids? Well a few days later he started texting me again and and we've been speaking ever since and have even gone on a few dates. I don't know what to make of it all. I think that part of me just likes the attention (he texts me every morning and calls me beautiful). I also like a guy who doesn't take no for an answer. Also, I do have this thing for cops... However, I'm not feeling the spark with him. I like him, but don't necessarily desire him. He came over the other night (we still haven't had sex yet....very strange for me) and we had a heavy make out session and just cuddled on my couch. It was nice, but I'm not sure I want us to go further. I don't want to lead him on and I'm really confused about what I should be doing with him. I think that when it comes to dating confusion is the name of the game.