Sunday, November 18, 2012

giving B23 a second chance

B23:  I miss hanging out with ya
Mad Girl:  Well you are the one who dropped off the face of the earth
B23:  I guess I did but you made it seem like you wanted to date more than just me

So this is the recent e-mail exchange I've had with long lost B23.  It's been about two months since I gave up on him and I was shocked as hell to find a message in my OKC inbox the other day.  It's got me wondering what I did to make him believe that I wanted to date other people because he was the only one I was dating at the time and I really liked him.

I think I'm going to give him a second chance and try to figure out exactly what gave him that impression.  I know I try to play it cool and sometimes that comes across as uninterested.  I think I do it to protect myself from heartbreak (thanks B19).  So maybe I need to be upfront with B23 about how that made me feel and how I actually did want to date just him.  I mean, the guy made me carbonara for Pete's sake.  You don't just go throwing away a chance to be with carbonara making man who is good at sex and fun to be around.

To complicate this situation a bit more, I've been seeing B29 again.  Remember how I ditched him because he had kids?  Well a few days later he started texting me again and and we've been speaking ever since and have even gone on a few dates.  I don't know what to make of it all.  I think that part of me just likes the attention (he texts me every morning and calls me beautiful).  I also like a guy who doesn't take no for an answer.  Also, I do have this thing for cops...  However, I'm not feeling the spark with him.  I like him, but don't necessarily desire him.  He came over the other night (we still haven't had sex yet....very strange for me) and we had a heavy make out session and just cuddled on my couch.  It was nice, but I'm not sure I want us to go further.  I don't want to lead him on and I'm really confused about what I should be doing with him.  I think that when it comes to dating confusion is the name of the game.