Sunday, November 18, 2012
Mad Girl: Well you are the one who dropped off the face of the earth
B23: I guess I did but you made it seem like you wanted to date more than just me
So this is the recent e-mail exchange I've had with long lost B23. It's been about two months since I gave up on him and I was shocked as hell to find a message in my OKC inbox the other day. It's got me wondering what I did to make him believe that I wanted to date other people because he was the only one I was dating at the time and I really liked him.
I think I'm going to give him a second chance and try to figure out exactly what gave him that impression. I know I try to play it cool and sometimes that comes across as uninterested. I think I do it to protect myself from heartbreak (thanks B19). So maybe I need to be upfront with B23 about how that made me feel and how I actually did want to date just him. I mean, the guy made me carbonara for Pete's sake. You don't just go throwing away a chance to be with carbonara making man who is good at sex and fun to be around.
To complicate this situation a bit more, I've been seeing B29 again. Remember how I ditched him because he had kids? Well a few days later he started texting me again and and we've been speaking ever since and have even gone on a few dates. I don't know what to make of it all. I think that part of me just likes the attention (he texts me every morning and calls me beautiful). I also like a guy who doesn't take no for an answer. Also, I do have this thing for cops... However, I'm not feeling the spark with him. I like him, but don't necessarily desire him. He came over the other night (we still haven't had sex yet....very strange for me) and we had a heavy make out session and just cuddled on my couch. It was nice, but I'm not sure I want us to go further. I don't want to lead him on and I'm really confused about what I should be doing with him. I think that when it comes to dating confusion is the name of the game.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
B29 was someone who responded to my Dark Lord ad (the one where I say I'm not interested in anyone who has or wants to have kids). We exchanged a few e-mails and then started texting. Turns out he is a cop (hot!) and a little kinky. He's also half Peurto Rican (you know I love the Latin men) I felt I was on the right track. We finally met about two weeks ago and had a nice date. I wasn't wowed with him, but I did like him and felt that there was definitely more chemistry via text.
We've spent that last two weeks texting every single day. It's been nice and I've been looking forward to dating him again. We finally managed to meet up again last night. So there we are at Sheffield's sharing some beers and basket of ribs and wings. I'm being my normal Chatty Cathy and decided to ask him some serious questions. I had been warned about married men working the dating sites so I flat out asked him if he had ever been married. Turns out he was recently (as of February) divorced Okay, I can deal with that. He was married for 13 years so he can obviously commit. On a whim I decide to ask if he has kids. I said this almost jokingly because I've been talking to him for almost a month and he hasn't once mentioned kids. Also, he knows how much I hate them. Oh and there is the fact that I put that disclaimer on my FUCKING AD.
Surprise....he has two sons who are 6 and 8. What the fuck! I'm sure he saw my reaction to that, but I tried to play it cool and knew I needed time to processes this information. However, a big part of me wanted to just end the date and run. We continued our date and had a nice time, but by this point I wasn't even feeling like kissing him and just ran into my apartment when he dropped me off.
Now that I've had time to process I know what I need to do. I need to let him know that I'm really not cool with the kids. The part that bothers me the most is that I clearly stated this in my ad and he proceeded to date me without being upfront about that. Also, I'm not into him enough that I would be willing to accept kids into my life. This is a deal breaker for me and I'm not going to budge. Guess it's back to the drawing board.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
B25 responded to my Dark Lord add. He's a private investigator and I thought that was kind of cool. I actually had this whole film noir thing playing out in my head. However, he did not show up in a trench coat, order a whiskey on the rocks and call me a dame. We did have a nice date involving a few beers at Fountainhead, which is becoming one of my favorite beer bars in Chicago. He was nice enough and we had a good conversion but I really wasn't feeling a spark. Also, he kept staring at my boobs so that's pretty annoying. We left on good terms, but he hasn't called me and I honestly wasn't that in to him so I figured I should let it pass.
B26 is actually someone I met on OKC a bit ago. He really wasn't my type, but wrote me a really nice e-mail and it turns out he is a food critic so I was thinking I could be foodie friends with him. I sort of lied and told him I wasn't looking for a relationship. He e-mailed me a lot and we finally decided to meet up. We went for lunch (this wasn't a date so I was okay with getting food) and then had a few beers at Sheffiled's (which is now my go-to date place). Turns out he can not hold his booze and was out after only two drinks. Pathetic. I could tell that he was into me, but I was so not into him. It was fun to talk foodie stuff with him, but he looked like Newman from Seinfeld and can't hold his booze. No way Jose. He's been e-mailing and texting me ever since our date last week and I've kind of stopped responding because it's getting a little creepy. If you send three texts to someone throughout the day and they don't respond then you should probably take a hint. Also, I think I have issues with guys liking me. I only seem to like the ones that don't like me in return...what the fuck is up with that? I feel that's a whole other blog and a few sessions at the therapist.
B27 is someone I might go on a second date with. He really isn't my type physically He's the first Chinese-American I've dated and I'm just not turned on by Asian men. I'm always willing to prove myself wrong though and I like that he seemed very polite and was a world traveler. Turns out that he's a beer geek too and a pretty funny guy. I had a really nice date with him, but I just wasn't feeling it. I'm thinking about giving him a second date before I write him off though.
B21....now this is a strange twist of fate. So I had some issues with my debit card and needed to stop by my bank to see if they could help me. I thought i was just going to go to the teller and make a quick withdrawal and leave I knew B21 worked at that branch, but I've never run into him. So I get there and they decided I need to speak to a banker....who happens to be B21. There was a little awkward moment and then we fall into conversation. We decide to meet up for a drink. Turns out that I actually do enjoy hanging with B21 as a friend. We had a really nice time out and got to catch up with each other. We agreed to stay in contact and have been texting ever since. Now, the twist to all of this is that B21 is REALLY into me. Not only did he make me make a pact to marry him at 40 if we are both single, but he also told me that he had the most amazing sex with me. It was a total confidence boost to hear that I'm so skilled in the bedroom. Kind of want to put that on my resume. He was so kind and sweet to me that I felt bad for not liking him that way in return. He wants to hook up with me again, but I'm not sure if that's what I want to do. On the other hand, I'm horny as hell and this might keep me from jumping into bed with an unassuming bachelor. We'll see, but I'm going to try and keep it in my pants.
So there you have it. I have 2 more potential Bachelors to try out and then Operation Dark Lord will come to a close. I don't know if I've found anyone worthy of my Dark Lord yet. I might have to try posting again and see what I find.
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Looking for someone special to share my Dark Lord with (32F Lakeview)
Also, I'm not interested in anyone who has or wants to have kids, doesn't live in the city and is over the age of 45.
Devil worshipers need not apply.
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
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Friday, August 31, 2012
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Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
- My job is has it's highs and lows, but the lows are far outweighing the highs lately. Plus, I'm having this whole 'what do I want to be when I grow up' crisis.
- Money. I've got credit card bills to pay so I just cant up and quit my job. I need to find something that pays close to what I'm making now. Either that or move to a shitty neighborhood, rent a studio and live off ramen...not an option.
- On top of all of that I'm getting zero lovin. I haven't had sex in months, I'm horny as hell and the only boy I can think about is B10. Frustration times 10.
Monday, July 16, 2012
The one other things that I'm going to get is a tattoo with my sister. She already has a few and I think it would be neat for each of us to get sister in Polish (which is sisostrzany) tattooed somewhere.
So there is my short term ink plan, what do you think? I'd love suggestions, ideas and tips from those of you in the know.