Monday, April 4, 2011

B15 + B10 + B6 = Mad Girl is in a funk

Bachelor #15 and I had our third date last night. There was no kiss at the end of the date and I'm 75% sure there is no chemistry. I think I may have just made another friend. We have a good time with each other and I do enjoy his company, but I just don't think I'm feeling much more. Maybe we should kiss and then I'll know a little more. Sometimes it is in the kiss. Maybe we should sleep together. What if the sex is amazing and that is what ignites our relationship? I'm just so confused about what step to take next, but I do know I don't want to play games. So maybe on our next date I just need to come clean and tell him how I'm feeling. What is really frustrating about all of this is that I keep coming back to Bachelor #10. I really like him, but I don't want to ruin what we have (what is it that we have anyway?) by pushing for a relationship when I'm pretty sure that is not what he wants right now. I don't want to be the girl who tries to change the rules of the game mid-play. To make everything more confusing I had a quick hook-up with Bachelor #6 this week. We exchanged a few dirty texts and he stopped by for a some very quick sex because he had somewhere to be afterwards. It was just as good as it used to be, but I was somehow left unfulfilled. I'm not sure if I just needed the conversation that leads up to the sex or if I'm just not that into B6 anymore. Either way, I'm in some sort of dating funk. I'm exchanging e-mails with about 5 guys on OKC, but none have really impressed me yet. Maybe if I meet a few of them in person that will change. I hope I get out of this funk soon.

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