Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Mad Girl gets left with the tab

I seem to be stuck in a 'relationship' with B21. I like him on a platonic level, but feel absolutely no chemistry or connection to him. This was so clear last night when we had a date. He came over after work and we drank a few beers and caught up on our lives. We then had sex which was okay (it's very rare that I every dislike sex), but really lacked a certain pizazz that I look for in a partner. He's not B10, that's for sure, but he's adequate and I do enjoy myself.

Anyway, after that we actually headed out for dinner. It was nice to get out for a change and I thought that maybe this would mix things up a bit. We had a nice dinner at Duke of Perth. However, here's where it really went wrong. When the check came I had fully intended on splitting it, but he says: I'll get our drinks at the next bar. What the fuck? He totally left me with the bill and now that I think about it, I'm a bit pissed. Most guys will insist on paying or will at least pay their share. What is he trying to pull? So, I paid the $50 tab and let him buy me a Guinness at the next bar....totally not fair. If he knew he was going to leave me with the tab the least he could have done is not order two $8 beers! What a douche. Speaking about money makes me uncomfortable and I hate to be petty, but I'm in no financial shape to picking up this guy's tab all the time.

Afterwards we went back to my place and watched a movie while cuddling on the couch. Having the companionship was nice and he even tucked me into bed when I fell asleep. He's a nice guy, but not what I'm looking for. The part that really bothers me is that I am still with him because I want some sort of companionship in my life, but I'm also still looking. I think I am being unfair to him and have to tell him that I don't see us going anywhere and he should just move on or he can keep me as a friend/hook up if he wants.

This is not how I wanted to treat guys. I never intended to lead him on. A part of me was holding out and hoping that things would change and I would grow to really like him. However, the bottom line is that I'm looking for something more. I need that guy who can put a smile on my face, make me feel special, take care of my emotional and physical needs. I'm looking for chemistry and I'm not going to settle. Now the question is weather I just 'dump' him over text or tell him in person next time we hang out. I want to do it face to face, but I'm afraid I'll just have sex with him instead. Decisions, decisions.

1 comment:

  1. Douche move on his part. If you're not into him, he's clogging up your schedule to meet a dude that you truly do like, appreciate and have chemistry with. xo, Mariss

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